Monday, November 26, 2007 @10:04 PM
How real is it?
It was only yesterday, wasn't it. Sending me the pieces you've composed, teaching me the tricks of getting abs, showing me how true fighting spirit is.
No, but it wasn't yesterday. It was a year ago.
You were one of the true friends I've had on the team and you are gone. So close. So unrealistic. It wasn't supposed to end this way, was it.
All the training, all the hard work, all the sacrifices. N it all ended now? when you are just 23?
I'm 22, dammit. The same thing can happen to me and I wouldn't know.
Living you life to the fullest while you can? How full can a 23-year-old have lived his life.
What do you judge it by. The number of comments on his friendster profile? Bullshit.
Was it all worth fighting for?
Death came knocking early and answered the question, hasn't it.
People are enjoying their lives. Living whatever trivial dreams they have and yours? gone down the murky Cambodian river. Fuck.
Fuck fuck fuck.
Fuck it man. You are still on my fucking msn. But you are GONE. Just like that!
So what am I supposed to do with you on my msn contact list? Delete it and let it disappear as how memories of you will slowly fade away? Dammit!
Reuben. One year on but only now I miss the buddy I had during those days.