Monday, November 26, 2007 @10:04 PM
How real is it?
It was only yesterday, wasn't it. Sending me the pieces you've composed, teaching me the tricks of getting abs, showing me how true fighting spirit is.
No, but it wasn't yesterday. It was a year ago.
You were one of the true friends I've had on the team and you are gone. So close. So unrealistic. It wasn't supposed to end this way, was it.
All the training, all the hard work, all the sacrifices. N it all ended now? when you are just 23?
I'm 22, dammit. The same thing can happen to me and I wouldn't know.
Living you life to the fullest while you can? How full can a 23-year-old have lived his life.
What do you judge it by. The number of comments on his friendster profile? Bullshit.
Was it all worth fighting for?
Death came knocking early and answered the question, hasn't it.
People are enjoying their lives. Living whatever trivial dreams they have and yours? gone down the murky Cambodian river. Fuck.
Fuck fuck fuck.
Fuck it man. You are still on my fucking msn. But you are GONE. Just like that!
So what am I supposed to do with you on my msn contact list? Delete it and let it disappear as how memories of you will slowly fade away? Dammit!
Reuben. One year on but only now I miss the buddy I had during those days.
Sunday, November 18, 2007 @10:21 PM
After sheesh-I-have-no-idea how long, Junbin is happy! hahaha..
Like such exhilarating happiness when it's actually nothing much. But still, I finally see some light! hahaha.. some direction if you want to put it that way.
Well, Ok, I know. This is damn weird 'coz I've yet to even mention what I'm happy about... but... it's a long story! :D Not the right time too! :D
Can somebody bring me back down to earth please?
Ok, haha. I just crashed back into the ground - 0017hrs
Monday, November 12, 2007 @1:43 AM
I'm amused.
Nothing's changed. really.
You said it felt like old times. Somehow my eyes got fixed at the word "old"
Funny how the first thing that got planted when I came back was this very catchy song, catchy yet full of a careless, hopeless form of exasperation.
"This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory
No Happy Ending
This is the way that we love
like it's forever
Let's live the rest of our life
But not together"